Talk is cheap. Walk the walk. Word is bond.
These are some of the most quoted sayings about one of the most important principles in life. Back up your words. Keep your promises. The ones you make to yourself and to others. It's too easy to fall into the trap of saying one thing and doing another. It's easy to say things. It can be very difficult to actually DO things. I'll be the first to admit that I struggle with this. Not so much in a broken promises way as (I'm sure that's happened, I'm human) having big dreams and goals and not taking the action to make them happen. Saying I want to do things, and not doing them. (I'm sure some of the people in my life would point out that I can be flakey at times, too, and this is also a part of the same flaw.) I'm becoming more and more self aware, which is a good (and somewhat uncomfortable) thing. It's really easy to delude ourselves. I think it's a universal human trait. As my self awareness grows, I become more aware of my flaws. (Hoping I'll eventually become more aware of my strengths, too.) This isn't the best feeling thing in the world, but I'm happy about it nonetheless. Now, I can work on fixing the leaks. So I'm posting this as a reminder to myself (and you, dear reader) how important it is to prove your words.
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Holy shit. It’s September! How the hell did we get here so fast?
Good news and bad news in my household. Today, Tuesday (my wife) FINALLY got an MRI done. She’s already had exploratory surgery to try to figure out what is causing her crippling pain. Hopefully this imaging will show what’s wrong and it will be an easy fix. (Doc mentioned a consult with a spinal surgeon…) She’s really sad because she’s going to have to drop classes because her physical condition is getting worse and she might end up needing surgery. So that’s mixed news. Also, I’ve outlined goals for this month (I got lazy and skipped a couple months- bad Jax!) I’m working on working everyday for a set amount of time, and working out a little bit every day. So far so good. Our housing conditions continue to deteriorate. This place is horrible. It's better than being homeless, I think. Pretty sure it is slowly killing everyone (mold, bugs, this fine dust from the railroad, other toxins, etc) and it might really fucking hurt one of us quickly as well. It’s got ever increasing holes in the floors, and I’m afraid part of the floors will collapse… Gotta get the heck outta here ASAP. It should be condemned for sure. So better living conditions is most definitely on the to-do list! Really want to get us an apartment of our own with no roommates, at least for a while. Ideally, I’ll get my shit together enough to afford a really nice place of our own for the rest of our lives. On a lighter note, I’m excited that all the pumpkin flavored crap will be available! I freaking love that stuff. P.S. I'm making an effort to be more authentic and will be trying to be myself more, including on here. Also, I want to make more content and write more, so look out for that! |
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